If I Rise.

So.. I was on my countdown till India and today, that countdown just skipped a day. I got to know that my flight would leave a day earlier. Sad news, isn't it? I think otherwise.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MWMuo9Bc0ww  My suggestion of music while reading. Enjoy!

The Rising Sun.

 Most exchange students would tell you that leaving your host country is one of the worst things that can ever happen to you. I really don't think so. When I got to know about it, I really did not know how to feel. I was caught in two minds. I was happy because I'm going back home a day earlier. I'm tired of my exchange, I really am. I can't continue with this life for long. An aimless life, a life without a routine. Yes, it certainly was the best year of my life but I've had enough. I have fulfilled my motive of being an exchange student. I have accomplished what I had set out to accomplish and that was to learn to be happy. 2010 did not really work for me the way I would have wanted to and exchange was a much needed break. I have learnt the alphabets by heart and I'm never going to forget them.. That's exactly what has happened with my exchange. The lesson has been learnt and has been learnt for life. I will need to revise it from time to time but never study it all over again. Like Paolo Coelho said in The Alchemist, or rather meant to say, you have to keep moving on in life. When you feel you have accomplished all that you could, move on! That's exactly what I want to do. Go forward. Meet newer challenges.
 The reason I felt sad was the face my mom made when she got to know that I had to go a day earlier. Even Da Vinci would have failed to potray those emotions, that's how deep it was. Just yesterday I asked her.. 'What if my flight got changed to an earlier date?'. She blew that question off with with a certain unease. Today. Voila! Flight changed. I really felt sad looking at her face at that time. Very sad. My brain gave an hurrah, but my heart sank like The Titanic. Slowly and painfully. I feel bad for her. She has been my best friend in Brazil. She really has. I have opened my heart to her on various occasions and she let me in with such ease! I talked with her about anything and everything. From girl problems to football. Wait, this is turning into a goodbye letter now. Something I am trying to avoid doing. Change topic.
 Last blog post was about getting prepared to face India and I can certainly say that I'm ready and that too before time. Some of my exchange student friends are hating it back in their home country because they got so used to their exchange that they couldn't differentiate real life and exchange. Too bad for them because they ended up suffering, ended up praising their host country all the time and ended up losing themselves in their exchange world. This is what exchange has done to me. I have become wiser and I know it. It's not me but everything and everyone around me who deserve the credit. All I have done is observe. That's it, the easiest thing that exists. My two amazing host families who always supported me, helped me, raised me up as a brazilian deserve the credit the most. I shall be indebted to them for life. Again, its turning into a goodbye letter.

 I knew from the beginning, that exchange was a ten month deal. Did the deal yield profits? Did I have a succesful exchange? That question.. India shall answer.

P.S. Just ten days till this blog 'The Land of My Dreams' meets it's end. :)